Whoa! I got a lot of emails and comments about the last blog entry, so please let me clarify a few things. (And thanks very much for those who responded.)
First, in response to an email, I wasn't saying that I should write an inspirational work because someone mentioned that, when I did, let her know. Not at all. In some ways, Cursing the Darkness, though very dark, is inspirational at the end. The main character, after all, finds redemption and saves a life. Solves a few major crimes and mysteries while he's at it, too. So I do, in a way, write inspirational things, though not quite in the Anne Morrow Lindbergh vein. Thank you, reader, for that email.
Secondly, I have to admit to a slight loss in confidence. The business side of writing had been getting to me, and I almost had my hands and arms thrown up, but I recovered a bit today. I am only going to write what I want, as I concluded yesterday, though today I am a bit more confident about that. As I said, I can't say that it's a stance I'm advocating; I simply cannot write anything I'm not driven to write. It's part of why I stopped being a freelance reporter and copyeditor. (The other part was the lack of decent payment!) Thank you, Emma, for your comments! Rest assured that I'm still in it to win it--for me. I assure you, I used to work for the papers, and unless I get my own column (which I was promised back in the day, and never got), I'm not going back! (Though I do miss the freedom, the driving around, the independence, the meeting of new people...)
Lastly, thank you all--e-friends who emailed and/or commented--and others who called, for giving me a little pet on the head and the advice to carry on. I will. I am. (After I get done the work necessary this weekend to pay The Man.) I will indeed write what I am driven to write, what I want to write, and I will write really long blogs when I want to. I'll keep my eyes and ears open to what's been selling, but I won't gear my work towards it, per se. If it fits, it fits. If it doesn't, it doesn't.
Thanks again. You all rule!